Interestingly, just as I heard a national day song playing on TV, I was reminded that one year ago on National Day, I had missed the entire parade as I was having a Skype interview in hope that I could do an internship in New York.
It’s enough of saying I need a change, and the world is my oyster. I know the general change I want, and I’ve the biggest push to date.
I’m sorry I don’t feel rooted here. I don’t feel contented. I don’t feel satisfied and whole. And I’m sorry it took a song (that is supposed to invoke nostalgia and national pride) to remind me that I’ve just done this a year ago. It failed then, but the next time I try (possibly next year, depending on how things pan out), I will be prepared. I will try even harder.
I know it’ll be tough. But damn it, I need to try and make my own mistakes.
I just need time to zoom by a little quicker now, if you don’t mind…